Since the moment I woke up this morning I have been going. I cleaned off our weight set and moved it outside and lifted. I went out on the lawn and did my gymnastics warm ups and routines. I did a work out that my little brother had. I did work in the house and outside with my little brother, all the while thinking about how I needed to work out more and eat differently.
I realized that I wasn't working out for me though. The reasons going through my head today for why I needed to do all of this wasn't so I would be healthy...I want to look good in a swimming suit, I want my legs to look nice in shorts, I want to look good naked. But not for me. All of these reasons have been so other people will think I look good.
This hit me as I was doing my gymnastics outside. As I walked outside in my shorts, sports bra, and t-shirt I thought to myself "it's a good thing no one is going to be seeing me today because I look fat." But then as soon as I started tumbling all of that left my mind. I felt so good. Stretching, bending, twisting...it felt amazing to be out there doing what I love.
And that is when I realized I wasn't exercising for me.
Why should I care so much about what people think of my physical appearance that I am willing to go on an extreme diet and basically spend my whole day working out? That is ludicrous.
Now don't get me wrong, being healthy and working out are fantastic...but you should do it all for you. You shouldn't do things just to appease others.
If I'm not happy with how I look I need to change it for me. Not for any other person. I need to focus on making me happy not everyone else.
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